I have made a severe lapse in judgement
April fools post
Hi. It's been a while since you saw my PFP. I haven't been doing so great, so I took a little break. A lot of people are saying some things about me that aren't quite true. It doesn't matter if it's true though just as long as it's entertaining to you. right? You guys having fun? All aboard the toxic gossip train chugging down the tracks of misinformation.
The Sayor gossip train... They got a one-way ticket to manipulation station. Sayor gossip traaaain. Tie me to the rails and harass me for my past. Rumors look like facts if you don't mind the gaps and I won't survive the crash but heyyyy. At least you are having fun.
Uh hi everyone, I've been wanting to come online discord and talk to you about a few things um even though my server has strongly advised me to not say what I want to say I recently realized that they never said that I couldn't sing what I want to say. So...
So here I am and um today I only want to talk about the facts so I hope that you'll be willing to listen.
Here we go.
Many years ago I used to troll my fans uh but not in a weird way like a lot of you are trying to suggest it was more of a loser kind of way but I was just trying to be besties with everybody. it's kind of like when you go to like a family gathering you know and there's a weird aunt there keeps coming up to you and going like "hey girl, kill yourself." and you're like that weird. Uhm that was me but in servers with my friens. it was weird.
I've been sharing my life online for over 5 years I've poured my heart out to you and because of that I feel like I'm talking to my friends but in the beginning of my account I didn't really understand that maybe there should be some boundaries there.
There were times the chats when I would share details of my life, which was really weird of me. I haven't done for in years you see, because I changed my behavior and I took accountability.
But that's not very interesting is it? So let's go on the toxic gossip train. Locomotives filed fueled with hateful accusations. The toxic gossip train. Steamrolling all over someone's reputation
Sayor gossip train, hop on board but close your eyes otherwise you'll realize that the train is made of lies and that the person you despise maybe didn't deserve to die, but hey at least you're having fun.
In all seriousness, I do think it's really important to hold people accountable for their mistakes um you know we should hope that everyone can learn from their mistakes and grow and change their behavior and be a better person. This is something that I've always tried to do when I make mistakes. It's something that I will continue to try to do...
What oh you don't care oh okay I thought you wanted me to take accountability but that's not the point of your mob mentality, is it? No, your goal is to ruin the life of the person you despise while you dramatize your lies and monetize their demise ... yeah.
I feel like I can already hear the comments on this newsletter post: she's gaslighting, manipulating oh she's a narcissist and a rat, I would never make a mistake like that.
oh I'm sorry I didn't realize that all of you are perfect, so please criticize me. Bring out the daggers made from your perfect past and stab me repeatedly in my bony little back. I'm sure you're disappointed in my shitty little song. I know you wanted me to say that I was 100% in the wrong. Well I'm sorry, I'm not gonna take that route of admitting to lies and rumors that you made up for clout.
Hey everybody I found someone new to harass she did some things that I do not like in her past so everybody gather round cause we're about to attack but not based on facts. Oh no you're loaded American gun It's your fingers on the keys. You don't need any netherite armor when you can hide behind a screen so shoot me down quick, with a click and bam - the reputation is deceased.
I also wanted to take a minute to talk about that guy, Matscalle, you know the one. He's trapped in that shortswars server it says that in the members page and it's always been that way and that's why you won't find my stuff on that server anyway. um I didn't realize it was my responsibility to decide what was appropriate for every discordian to see. I've always relied on them to decide if they're comfortable, with themselves reading my messages or coming to my live servers.
Now. Have I made some jokes in poor taste? yes. Have I made lots of dumb mistakes? yes.
am I sad that there are some fans who feel betrayed? yes.
Was my intention to manipulate? No.
It doesn't really matter what my intention was because it seems as though everyone's already decided on that.
Let me tell you it's not very fun to have tens of people all over the world call you the most vile ,horrendous, disgusting, life-ruining words that a person can be called, in my opinion.
Um it doesn't matter that these things aren't true, everyone just believes that you are the type of person who manipulates and abuses people.
oh I just wanted to say that um the thing I've ever truly tried to offend is my two old parents. I'm not a villain, I'm just a loser who didn't understand I shouldn't respond to people and I'm not a monster, even though a lot of you think so, because two years ago I made a racist joke.
So even though I know this newsletter post won't change anyone's mind about me I still felt it was important to come on here and defend myself a little and take accountability. And I also wanted to say that to anyone out there who has ever supported me, in any capacity, I really really appreciate you. thank you.
For what it's worth, I never had any bad intentions but I do feel like shit.
The toxic gossip train, you're chugging down the track of misinformation. Sayor gossip train... You've got a one way ticket to manipulation station. Sayor gossip train... you tied me to the rails and harassed me for my past. Rumors look like facts when you don't mind the gaps. I won't survive and crash, but hey...I hope you had some fun.
Actually, you know, I feel like maybe I should let you guys know something. um it seems like, maybe you're confused about something. I don't know.
Let me try to help, um.
Sometimes people make a mistake and it does and make them a horrible person. whoaaaa. sometimes people can make a mistake and they're still a good person, crazy I know. sometimes people can make a mistake and you don't have to take a mistake and twist it up and grind it and add some lies to it and pulverize it and stab it with knives and ruin a life and. oh no sometimes people can make a mistake, it doesn't mean you gotta send them hate. oh no sometimes people can make a mistake and you can kindly let them know and help them to grow.
sometimes people make mistakes simply because they made a mistake and that mistake doesn't make them a terrible human, it just makes them a human.
But what do I know? Fuck me, right?
April Fools I regret absolutely nothing
For context I take no accountability to the original meaning of the song that this is a parody of, I'm imitating it just like weird Al does and he's cool so that means I'm cool too
I know I'm not cool